I can only imagine

We had the magical evening- the one that involved staring into each others eyes for hours (real hours), words were spoken and not spoken... hands were held for the first time and my my did the sparks fly!

This continued the next day as I awoke with a song in my heart and happiness that could not be explained. I was thrilled when I saw him again and caught him staring at me not once or twice :-) My did I feel so beautiful!

He then got on  flight to the end of the world (a.k.a Australia).

I was confused. It had all happened so fast. What was I to do? Was all of "this" even real? Was it all in my head? But he hadn't yet even said the "L" word! My heart was fluttering all over the place.
And just like that, we started our loooooong distance relationship. Skype was our bff for two years. My non-tech-savy self learnt how to make so many things work. With my laptop which had no microphone and a battery that lasted 3 whole minutes, this dating thing was no walk in the park but we larnt how to make it work. I figured out the perfect lighting which could even make jammies look dope! Learnt how to give virtual hugs and bond across the oceans.

I knew that we would be together again sometime. We talked about it and longed for it. Then came the time when he actually set off for Uganda. What??? I could not believe it!!! I was super excited but I was also totally surprised by how scared I was. Would it be the same? Would he be as excited about me in person? What if all these lovey-duvey things were just easier to tell someone you don't have to see and hang with for rio. What if we would not connect when we met again after all the time that had passed? Had I just been extrapolating stuff? Was this relationship really real? What if he didn't like how I looked in natural light with no filters???

I panicked! Didn't know what to wear or how to prepare. You see.. we had been chatting in jammies...Not much of that dress up stuff. Reality was so hard and scary!

He had said he that would be coming to our house. I went up the road to meet him. As I walked closer, my fear remained. I did not know what to expect. I walked nervously towards him until he saw me. We rushed towards each other and he grabbed me. I do not know how long he held me in his arms. But when he held me and spoke gently to me, I knew. I knew that it was for real. All of it. Me. Him. Me and him. Us. I was muted. I had no questions. This was not in my head. He was here. Loving me. Wanting me. Yes, my guy from the phone was here.

Truthfully, that moment that night gives me hope as I look forward to seeing my Saviour. I feel like me and the Lord are now kinda in a long-distance situation where although He is such a Huuuuge part of my life and I talk to Him everyday, but I don't see Him. Sometimes I am temped to question whether "all of this is in my head". But in my heart I know that when I see Him, it will be better than I imagined. My rock, my God, my Friend and My King, I look forward to the day that my faith will become sight.